In Memories of….

I have been getting sick easily and quite frequently recently, with all the flu and sore throats. I think I really need to build up my body immunity system. It’s time to head for the gym. Can somebody discipline me to go to the gym at least every Saturday morning for a start? Otherwise, a daily walk with Kookie and Rinko once a week to Punggol Park will be equally beneficial to my body as well.

I need to apologise to person involved cos the other person has totally misunderstood my meaning. I should have predicted this action of his because he’s always been the 冲动 type.

I sincerely offer my apologises. Sorry for the hurt caused.

一时糊涂 不能就不算湖涂
害得你痛苦 我的内心满是酸楚
只能看着你哭 我却不能安抚 太无助

无心错误 毕竟还是错误
我承认我贪图 才对美丽把持不住
意乱情迷以后 我也慌了脚步
请相信我撒谎 也是怕你痛苦

有时候因为一次温柔的原谅
女人会看见男人忏悔痛哭一场
那天起整个人都变得很不一样
懂幸福就在身旁不该去远方

能不能给我一次含泪的原谅
让我的心被真爱救赎变得坚强
能抵挡一切浪漫诱惑躲开荒唐
只努力用一辈子深爱来补偿
有没有机会用一辈子来补偿

I was very touched when I 1st heard this song that 苏有朋sang, but I’ve never expected that I would be one of the lead characters one day.

I have to admit that if someone ever betrays my trust, it’ll be very hard for him to regain my trust again. Yet, I broke my principle again and again just for this person. Like what someone posted on her blog, “give the person one tight slap for being the jerk”. The problem is people whom we trust actually supported his actions.

This person not only betrayed my trust, but has also made me a devil in the presence of all his friends and relatives. The irony is: so far, no one I knew has heard any complaints about him.

All I can say is this will be the last last chance given to this person…

Bibi has passed away yesterday. I woke up to see her motionless in her cage. I bought Bibi 10 years ago from Pet Safari, Simei with Dawn and she was my second rabbit after Ah Bai, my 1st rabbit.

When my dad was hospitalized, Bibi has refused to eat nor drink. She was also one of the smartest rabbits I have ever seen. I remembered once her favourite brand of rabbit pellets was out of stock island-wide. We have tried to mix other brands of pallets for her but she managed to pick her favourite pellets out of the mixture and left the other brand intact in her food bowl.

She was also the 1st rabbit to make me realise that rabbits do grunt and is not afriad to fight Wonka when he tries to chase after her.

Some pictures of Bibi in the past:

On the same evening when Bibi passed away, a huge moth was discovered in my bathroom which makes me wonder if she’s came back for a final farewell.

Jackie’s godfather who is also his maternal uncle has just passed away on 17th Feb 2009. Jackie was informed his godfather was admitted into ICU on Monday and had rushed over on the very afternoon by coach to visit his godfather. By Tuesday morning, the doctor has instructed his cousin and him to inform everyone to take their last look at him. I was informed of his death at 0900+hours.

I took the 3.30pm coach to KL after leaving Rinko and Kookie in my mother’s care (Little Rinko boy suffered from a 1.5day diarrhoea after returning from my mum’s place. He probably had consumed some tibits that he never had before. Rinko has always had a weak tummy).

I have only met Jackie’s godfather once during one of his cousins’ wedding and the 2nd time I get to see him is actually at his funeral. He has actually planned to visit us in Singapore somewhere this year. It’s a pity that I did not get to interact more with him. Sometimes, we tend to occupy ourselves with our own activities so much that we tend to forget to spend more time with people around us. It’s only when events happen, whether for good or bad that we remember them. I should really treasure time with my love ones whenever I can.

The next trip to KL will be a happy event. One of Jackie’s cousins will be getting married on Mothers’ Day.

I have been thinking if I should take up BSc / BSc (Honours) Mathematics with Psychology @ SIM for the next July intake but financial is a worry. Hopefully I can find sponsors or strike lottery sufficient to cover the course. Till then…

I went to the Lee Guitars All Stars Concert at Singapore Indoor Stadium yesterday. I would say this is one unique concert as the name suggests, the bulk of the performance involved guitars. Even the stage is a big big guitar!!!

The concert started with 李宗盛 singing the theme song for the concert followed by a few songs he has written, then with Emil Chou (周华健）who managed to make the uncle sitting beside me to sing and clap along with him.

The guy in shades in 张震岳. The trio were singing 《我是一只小小鸟》.

The concert continued with Tanya Chua & 陈绮贞 and a guitar pro playing 《离开地球表面》 solely on his guitar. Many were amazed by him.

The whole concert ended with 五月天’s performance with 李宗盛 rounding up. I found it a pity that 阿信 did not sing 《私奔到月球》with 陈绮贞 as I felt that would make a very good guitar duet and this is one of the few times they get to perform together on the same stage.

I had Ah Boy and Gavin over at my place on Deepavali’s eve. We’ve intended to play Wii and Mahjong but QJ couldn’t make it so mahjong was put off.

After Wii and PS3 (we wanted xbox360 as well but the poor set encountered the red realm of death again so we let it go), we started our long Monopoly session which took a whole 6 hours when I became the 1st one to go bankrupt.

The session ended at 5am, so we took Kookie and Rinko to McDonalds’ @ Rivervale Plaza before Gavin and Ah boy took their buses home.

My dears, please remember to reserve a day for Guitar Hero Wolrd Tour when it arrives at my place in mid November. Hope this time round QJ can join us and we can get to play the mahjong session which we had intended since months ago…..

I saw this message on my friendster:

I’m recently hooked on Playstation 3’s Dynasty Warriors 6. Gerrard said with this addition, I have ALL consoles in my house. Indeed, with xbox360, PS2, Wii, DS Lite, PSP, I couldn’t think of any more consoles which I do not own.

Jackie on the other hand is hooked onto the console’s Hot Shot Golf. I think for golfing games, I’d still prefer Wii as its motion is more real-life simulated.

Little Prince is asleep on my bed now. He really treats my bed as his nowadays. I wonder if his fur can grow back in time for his birthday.

This is the last thing I would ever thought to happen to me. Honestly, I was almost scared stiff when I saw blood in urine since last evening. The condition lasted till this evening until I decided that I should see a doctor.

I had wanted to see a doctor last night but decided to go for class instead.

I was given a urine test and was advised by the doctor to drink more water and to go back for a review 10 days later.

I think my body is really getting weaker and weaker. I was actually given 3 doses of antibotics for this whole month, twice for my throat infection earlier this month and now for this. Let’s hope that my immune system will build up and will not be sick again for the rest of the year.

I have been thinking: What if she has never knew the truth? Will she be much much happier now?

She’s alone in the States now and her family and once beloved is all in Singapore. I believe that she still loves him now, unfortunately she has fallen for a guy who is unable to withstand loneliness; one who is unable to tolerate the fact that his love one is not by his side. In his case, long-distance relationship won’t work out.

I sincerely hope that she will meet someone who truely loves her one day. I know that he truely loved her too and he’s tried his best to make the relationship work for them except he loves himself more than he loves anyone and their love happened at the wrong timing. Or should I say: I hope she will meet the correct person at the correct time for her next relationship, someone who is able to be with her forever and forever. I really really hope so….

To her : Hope to see you in July when you come back. Hopefully by then you have gotten over him.  

Discovered more and more lies. Yes, I was disappointed yet I was happy. Disappointed that I chose to trust the wrong person; yet was happy that I’ve chosen to move on. Was it true that people changed over years?

I did not know that I am a 2-timer until someone told me so. Haha..what a great joke. Neither did I know having me as a guarantor is such a disgrace..lol..

Yay!! Happy belated VDay everyone!!

Thanks ah boy, although I saw your message quite late, thanks for your wishes too!!

We got back our Discrete Mathematics results yesterday and there’s only one pass in the whole class ( me with 14/15 again).

It’s disappointing to know that my classmates have failed again. Some of them even made the effort to meet me for revision sessions. I know they have tried their best and I’ve tried my best to help too.

Mathematics has always been my best subject in school and the fact that I have taken Additional Mathematics during ‘O’ Levels and Mathematics C during ‘A’ Levels added to my advantage for this subject. 

Mathematics is a logical thinking subject which needs practice. I hope all of us can do better for the next test and get through this module together.

I was talking to Ruizhen today who added me to her MSN yesterday. How should I introduce her? An acquaintance? My ex-rival in love? Haha…anyway it’s already the past. I know that I have already got over that relationship and will have a better future with the current relationship I’m having now.

I find her as nice as any of the online friends I’ve made. Sincere, friendly; most importantly, talking to her is comfortable even though it should have been awkward. Let’s hope we can make good friends like what I have done with 90% of my online friends I hope she can get over the failed relationship soon… I know letting go is not easy, but if you do, you will be much happier you do now. He has never wanted to admit your relationship with him to me anyway even after the ‘notification’ about the current one.

Talking to her made me realise that even if you know someone for a long time, you may not know him as well as you think. Like what Dawn said,

“it seems both of u all also shocked that the different way he project himself in front of each other…

i am glad he is out of ur lives now man… “

After weeks of waiting, I finally got my examination results for my 1st semester. As what I’ve expected, I got a ‘B’ and a ‘C’. I haven’t been really studying last semester as I was too occupied with tutoring. It’s time to work hard from now on.

2006 is a year where I’ve been through lots of ups and downs and I hope 2007 will be a better year for me.

New year countdown was originally planned to celebrated with Jackie and his friends but eventually they decided that they will each have their own programmes. So I spent $15.30 on cab fare from Hougang to Jurong East, watched TV for about 2 hours, had my dinner at a coffee shop in Jurong East only to find myself counting down in Hougang Mall in the end. Let’s hope someone would plan things better next year. Nevertheless, I managed to watch Chen Yiyuan from Campus Superstar, Bros from Superband and the finalists from Project Superstar2 in Hougang Mall, a blessing in disguise.

Going through 2006:

1. Spent 6 months getting over Swee Jin
2. Enrolled in PSB Academy
3. Celebrated my birthday with Ah boy, Gavin and QJ
4. Spent fun moments with Jackie – Night Safari, Chinese Garden, Sentosa, Birdpark
5. Went to the Night Safari for the very 1st time
6. Had a memorable Utopia gathering at Juju with Ah boy, Qj, Koon Long, Ah Kok, Pamela, Chae Siong, Thomas and Dawn.
7. Bought my NDS lite.

In 2007 I hope to:

1. Learn to be more tolerant
2. Be more focus on my studies
3. Finish at least 1/3 of my untouched vcds lying in my room
4. Curb unnecessary spendings
5. Own Wii
6. Spend more time with my loved ones

It has been raining continuously for the past two days and I’m wondering if the rain would ever stop. The intense rainfall has caused flooding in various locations in Singapore. According to the news, the wet weather is expected to continue for the rest of this week.

The continuous rain reminds me of a nursery song which I’ve learnt when I was young:

Rain, Rain, Go Away,

Come again another day,

Little Suzy wants to play.